after having this same dream for the 5 time i coming to the thought of it not being a dream at all which is very disturbing even for me it start with me waking in a panic like i normly do in this reality but its get all saw movie with the "pig" mask person attacking you but i get what seems to be myself in my mask for this new band im still putting together then i find myself looking at a monitor with a over view of myself on a autopsy table the door opens from the cieling and i like levatate down in that mask of mine "he" starts to prepare the blades and once hes done it all starts i get my head straped so i have to watch the monitor so i can see how hes removing all my spinal disks one at a time but leaving as many nevries as he can after about 6 disks removed it almost feels like im use to the pain because its not as bad as the first few but it continues till i only have the few left near my brain stem to keep me alive and awake from their he contues to remove my arm bones from their goes for my ribs that he just broke to get my spine in the begining at this point i feel as im going to die which is still wierd most people would want to die right off the back but i just started to feel deaths warm embrace then i "wake" up to my nose bleeding heavily and i cant move at all cant breath cant feel my body at all i look around a bit then im sucked back into my dreams where the table has been overturned and all my intenals just row out of my grapping hole but since none of my organs had been damaged they just hang from me the other me is laying down under me just in a bloodlust and all catlike playing with my organs hanging once again sucked but to this world to seeing myself standing above me in the evil "pose"(im not a model so its not that good)i do then pulls out the blade i carry with me at all times and stabs it into my throat then after a minute of longer i get sucked back to the torture realm that ive come to call it and im being buried alive in the dirt and i can feel the cavity in my back and arms filling with incests and dirt once the weight is just killing me i wake up again to my nose bleeding but i can move a bit but not much i look at my hands and they have dirt on them and so does my shirt and pants i go to the bath room turn on the light and im all fucked up dirty and shit then get sucked away again to what i call eternity endless lifetimes of just floating in space i do this alot when talking to people but come back to them just finishing their sentence but yeah i come back from that eternity and im in bed shacking with a bloody nose and this is the 5th time this has happened never changes a bit insanity at the greatest level god damn im loosing it but i think im beginning to find all the hiden meanings in it maybe ill post that later on


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